My 30’s I can now put on a shelf, I’m now the big 40 here is my gift to myself!

I feel compelled to let you know that I love you. So many years has passed by, and I have never spoken these words to you. Your personality has been compared to when the sun appears on the horizon, full of color and vivid. Your laugh is infectious, and your captivating smile can shine through no matter how dark it gets. You believed your meekness to be weakness because you give your all and take in, if any what’s left. I must admit, I am a huge part to blame. I filled your mind with negative self-talk, doubt, and shame. I was your worst critic and made you appear timid. And for this I am truly sorry and thank you for being so forgiving, just another one of your special abilities. Look at you now though transformed in to a lioness from a kitten. Protecting what’s sacred, Rejecting what’s wicked. You know there is more to you, so you continue to keep digging, you know you want more so you continue to keep planting. Watching your FATHER doing the watering like a farmer on an early hot summer morning. Practicing faith over fear. Knowing that the LORD will and has always protected you from the fowler's snare. Alleviating the self-hate and realizing if anything your everything. Understanding that this is a feeling that external factors can’t bring. This self-love, this joy, this peace only comes from the KING of kings. Better late than never they say, I say I’m just proud to witness this day. On those days ahead where you just may not feel it, please refer back to this, in addition to Genesis. Knowing that you are created in HIS image! Give no one or no thing the power to ever make you feel any less. Indeed, you are truly one of a kind as it is written in Psalm 139. How I feel about you? It bears repeating, there may not be a “u” in forty, but Lana, I Love you dearly!

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